‘They seek him here. They seek him there. Those Frenchies seek him everywhere. Is he in Heaven? Or is he in Hell? That damned, elusive, pimpernel.’ this year, as usual, i shall mostly be losing myself into the mystic
Ping Pong! Sport of Kings! a game of kaleidoscopic genius and waft spin nifty pzzazz!… went with new christams pressie paddles (…and offspring!) for a game in seaford i’m a black belt! there was a puddle bog down my end, where’s Walter Raleigh when ya need him? but nowt can cramp my style, it did tho make for a few arm windmilling stuck in the mud comedic lunges my top spin overhead pummel smash is a pulsating thing o’beauty… a rare thing of beauty, only works once in ten attempts, but, boy, bedazzle good when it comes off… kersplatt! phooo weee! braggadoccio*… lets face it apart from chess, juggling, tiddlywinks, petanque… none of which will feature in the olympics… i’m not good at many sports, so best applaud myself for what talent i posess. stepping aside, momentarily, from the brouhaha of words… spent way too much time on my own this year, obvious reasons, gratitude for any fun and connection if there are any new years resolutions to be had, best we are all supportive, patient and kind to each other xx crikey, this drear lockdown winter is a longwinded slog, obvs if boredom and glumness is all i’ve got to complain about, then things are going very well inertia, i tend to oscillate twixt a comfortable soporific sloth and a lacklustre, docile apathy… almost, but not quite the same thing… tho, yes, interspersed with the occasional yelp pang of dismal loneliness… rubbish still new year, same old me… i’m going to take up a new hobby! body popping! esperanto! hula hooping! didgeridoo! wearing silk cravats! writing left handed! the peruvian nose flute! speaking only in iambic pentameter and limericks! all of the above? nope cannae be bothered, back to bed, wake me up when tis spring *braggadocio, oh, i’d always assumed it was italian, and that the docio bit was some smoothe sweet talking to oofset the preening arrogance, but nope apparently ‘of pseudo italian coinage, from spensers faerie queen (1594)’…dictionaries are brill
solstice yawning… woken at 5:00 by a bird singing, both stridently and lost, outside the front window. stupid bird. beautiful bird. notes flung up, an offering to the wind howl… ‘blackbird singing in the dead of night’ half heartedly meditated, looked to the buddha statue, just a brood, a bulk, darkness and exhaustion amongst the shadow… but, yes, always there went out to snap the dawn. gung ho optimism, mingles with a love of murk and drizzle. not far. not daft… these pics, the best i can conjure… extraordinarily impossible to photograph luminous gloom. look east rightey ho… joys of a hot shower, head down, dull, forget everything, yet pleasant enough, work seed of light born in the depth of darkness… the promise that days of ease, the light, will return, yes!… ha, gritted teeth, better than bated breath go easy on yourself. solstice blessings one and all x
a good year for indie chanteuse covers of Radiohead… the bends, such a glorious, sorrow stuffed album, great to hear new(ish) artists exploring its charm
look to the south west, out over the sea at sunset… or turn the gentle fuzz focus of your mind to it, as all is fog in these thar parts… an auspicious time x
early christmas pressie, i have splurged on a new shower cap… pig in blanket, pink with aplomb pink is one of my favourite colours… along with green! purple! orange! one of the heart chakra colours, i do love to wear it, yet it is hard to look good in… i had to use a bilge wash filter on this snap… fashion tips from a decrepit hippy heart throb? back when i was renting and boogie boards deckchairs in ocean city, i spent every day snoozing on the beach, under an umbrella wearing a pink hawaian star shell smock… miss that top! an astonishing sense of accomplishment, just from putting it on
aaaw the 80’s, such a duff decade x
flaps: The pink wings are a nice touch too x
me: angel delight?
from jenny: All you need is a smile!
me: Ha! Your right of course… A study in glumness. Trouble is that I’m so blessed with wrinkle-age that when I smile my eyes disappear. Eyes or smile! what a choice? Hope your well and groovy, missed the happy festie massive last summer xx
shapeshifter, changeling child… rainment summons essence and spirit? no other creature wears the skin of the animals its killed for food… mammoth, auroch… vast tundra sweeping herds of Reindeer on december afternoons impossible not to ponder the ancestors… hairless ape, far from africa, a mighty long way from home following the rich pickings of the herds, ever northwards, across the land bridge, to this, the gloomiest, dampest corner of north west europe… ha, no going back now gleaning, the rending of flesh from skin, curing, tanning…. then bone needles, gut for thread… to stitch a surrogate second skin viscera what a mucky business, hide swaddled, grease smeared, lousy with nits, beneath a dripping canopy, huddled close to the warmth of a dung fire… winter gruel surviving on what, yes, some strength of arm, but mostly guile, fire and stories? yep, that, a few berries, some fungii.. and a huge dollop of love for each other… you’d hope brown, dowd of the season, yet sometimes, at sunset, a colour almost swollen with luminescence down on the beach, i snivel gratefully: thankFuckForHouses, yep, THANKfuckforHouses!
not been working much this week, so a higher than usual quota of aimless pondering!
comment (from hannahw):
Nice hat, on the mundane level, where’d you get it
me: Kathmanduuu! hurrah thought nobody would ask… all these long winded words, just a peg to hang my hat on, as it were… an excuse for sartorial elegance xx
wool from a rare pink flamingo yeti… they hang around standing on one leg on the peaks of the Annapurna range
had this one 10 years, seem to have mislaid my more yellow-esque one somewhere? keep thinking i must go back to Nepal get another one… far more fascinating than a jaunt down kensington gardens!
mink! i saw a wild critter on the banks of the River Mole whilst up at mums yesterday my mind divided into one of those curious schisms… one thread was in awe of this astonishing, curious, beautiful, genius creature! whilst under my breath i started singing ‘psycho kiler quest que ce? ba ba ba ba ba ba’ minks are one of the weasel-oids (not a technical term!) yet sadly not british natives this one had a glossy glorious sable coat, and was across on the island about 20 yards away, out playing in the daylight … you’d seldom see an otter at this hour, distinctly nocturnal half tail, it did that bounding lope, where the body arches through the air and the tail sine wave follows through… nessie serpentine? it reminded me most of the black malabar squirrel i was fortunate enough to see in munnar back at the beginning of the year anyway it scrabbled down to the river, eased itself in, sleek swam down stream, then wriggled back up through a nest of branches, looked around, then launched itself into the water again. A Riparian delight… a changeling soul, at ease both on land and in the stream… just beautiful Of course a complete disaster for the humble water vole! a quick google shows that mink were first bought here for fur farming back in the 20’s (thankfully banned in 2000!) think Dame Edith Sitwell in furs cigarette holder clenched betwixt teeth they escaped and have been wild since 1960… most introduced species, however well meaning the intentions, end up being an unmitigated disaster! systems that have evolved into hard fought balance, thrown completely out of kilter by any interloper! anyway heres a pic of a tree at sunset from the same amble… possibly the only post you’ll view this week that references, weasels, edith sitwell and talking heads? but mbe not
bad back… order new mattress… lumbago twinge lugging upstairs… ah the spiral cycles of life gyre where are off spring when you need to lug a pocket sprung mattress? eh! some excuse about being off at uni… kids! nothing more ROCK than a new orthopedic sleep thang! anyway its amazing… they come vacuum packed! i had no idea… rolled up its about one billionth of its eventual size (slight exaggeration) then it literally bursts into being… i can see where they got the idea for the big bang creation of the universe now The literature promises ‘its more breathable than clouds’… yes cloud breath!? right sunshine! what be that? best be out in it ooh is the the ‘Rock Horns’ like the V-sign and mean something totally different the other way around? fluffy kitten cuddles or somesuch?
comments (by me):
‘in life, although we can’t have the life we expect, we can add a color to our life, perhaps a comfortable mattress, a fun pillow, a creative home decoration. Both can enrich our lives, and all this is in our own hands.’ inspiring! snoozy osbourne?
the great boing into being
lawks, yes, i do find my own posts somewhat annoying! partly i think that its just this facebook contraption is wearying… tho there is a fizz and a zing to be found in words. enthralling
so far as backs go, more yoga! have tended to neglect it whilst sitting and staring forlornly at computer for work… necessary… but some balance in all things
Tetris Falls, UK, 2020… PROOF, as if any were needed, the MATRIX is CRUMBLING! Doom encroaches… ignore the doofus in the foreground, rather observe the peculiar, suspiciously regular shaped rocks behind! the universe is pixellated… if you dare to venture to the margins… and seaford is WAY beyond any responsible boundary… the orthodontal decay is indisputable… ibid ‘Hancock, Sheldrake, McKenna 2012’ bafflement and confusion!… quite literally, the best way to soothe the power of any wave is to break it up, get it to reflect then interfere with itself as true for eggshell box sound insulation, as for concrete coastal defence against erosion i’ve always loved these geometric sea bollards… they make me think of the now retro futurism of the 60’s, the 70’s… on a family holiday, we drove the long swoop of the grand corniche to monte carlo… and these bits of lego were everywhere… barbican barbarella bar bar ram
morphicically resonating aside, i’m currently enjoying one of the younger sheldrakes mushroom audio books
*footnote… of waffle interest only to me… ibid… latin ‘of the same source’… obviously used incorrectly above, as there’s only one bibliographic reference… but have always yearned to type ‘ibid’, just so i can feel the frisson of momentarily belonging to the world of fusty academia. the word always makes me think of thoth… misconstruing it as ibis… and the moon god thoth is of course sacred to scribes