‘Gold!!! Always believe in your soul’ an equally rainy day in cornwall, back in the 80’s, with my older sis made me laugh anyway
things you find on your computer when your looking for important documents! this just an old photo of a photo, the original snap must be a beaut, at mums somewhere, had to chop mum and younger sister out of this one as the light reflection meant you couldn’t see their faces
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the vicissitudes of water
down by the river Mole contemplating the reflection of trees, on the opposite bank, in the waters of the river below a mirrored green prolifferation of foilage apart from the occasional pock mark and wind ripple, the reflection is serene, calm and still… and yet, peering beneath the surface, the water races downstream hurtle and intent something astonishing, how can motion summon such stillness? like the chime, the clear gracious note from a singing bowl, this grasps me emotionally, buoyed up, then pulled slightly apart, gently rent much in the way a tree, its roots rummaging down into the earth mother below, yet branches and leaves reach to the light above, tension and stretch river of flow and stillness, realm of insight and reverie in truth but a variant on the notion ‘we can never bathe in the same river twice’, whats in the noggin, but stepped down from the lofty impregnable, turret of thought emotions, held in the body, modulated, softened through the blessings of water
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later, at the mill race, after the water has come over the drop, rebound, it surges back upwards from the depths a marbled ooze like the clouds of some gas giant planet, all mottled greens and blues 4 separate pools, between them a linked chase of bubbles, a pattern that breaks then reforms again in an identical manner a holding pattern, a frequency resonance? sense of seethe something about water welling up from below, primordial, the goddesses of springs like Sulis Minerva at Bath, each is unique we have always come to speak with, praise and parley, make offerings to, the goddess of a particular place this intimate knowledge of the divine
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i always think of dad on this stretch of the Mole, as when up visiting, just before he died, I walked here all the time, it would have been his birthday today the blue flash of the insignia of a kingfisher, this miracle irridescence… a gasp, a fleeting dazzle, yes, and he is gone ‘Sweet Thames, run softly till I end my song’ the river meanders through the Eliots Wasteland dad was cremated a mile downstream, the hospice where he died 5 miles further, so much of my childhood pottering along the mole canoeing with Rich P on boxing day, in wet suits, capsizing somewhere near the weir floating down the river, cold, laughing
when shamanic journeying, in my imagination I often come to this archetypal british river, familiar, comforting alder and willow, streams of slime green water weed, dragon flies, swans and kingfishers a golden rainbow light of vision
Chutniiieeee! Tomato and Apple….. agonisingly, ecstatically yum! first time i’ve ever made it! the secret ingredient ginger (not so secret now blabbermouth) toms from the garden, a bag of apples from up the hill… the rest of the ingredients all from rummaging deep within the pantry bung EVERYTHING in the pan and gently hubble and trouble boil away… eventually all was reduced to a state of primordial gloop… that wot the first amoeba clambered out from? its texture sticky to the finger, colour kinda brown but with lashings of radioactive vermilion as you can gather i’m proud of it… it also required great poise to achieve a selfie balancing an apple on my head (William ‘kiss and’ Tell) anyway had intended to give up on facebook… horribly last decade… at least i’ve spared you my poetry… but you know. CHUTNEY! a Hindii word originally ‘to lick, or eat with appetite’… indeed!