the vicissitudes of water

photo from last winter, wish i’d taken some today!
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the vicissitudes of water

down by the river Mole
contemplating the reflection of trees, on the opposite bank, in the waters of the river below
a mirrored green prolifferation of foilage
apart from the occasional pock mark and wind ripple, the reflection is serene, calm and still…
and yet, peering beneath the surface, the water races downstream
hurtle and intent
something astonishing, how can motion summon such stillness?
like the chime, the clear gracious note from a singing bowl, this grasps me emotionally, buoyed up, then pulled slightly apart, gently rent
much in the way a tree, its roots rummaging down into the earth mother below, yet branches and leaves reach to the light above,
tension and stretch
river of flow and stillness, realm of insight and reverie
in truth but a variant on the notion ‘we can never bathe in the same river twice’, whats in the noggin, but stepped down from the lofty impregnable, turret of thought
emotions, held in the body, modulated, softened through the blessings of water

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later, at the mill race, after the water has come over the drop, rebound, it surges back upwards from the depths
a marbled ooze like the clouds of some gas giant planet, all mottled greens and blues
4 separate pools, between them a linked chase of bubbles, a pattern that breaks then reforms again in an identical manner
a holding pattern, a frequency resonance?
sense of seethe
something about water welling up from below, primordial, the goddesses of springs
like Sulis Minerva at Bath, each is unique
we have always come to speak with, praise and parley, make offerings to, the goddess of a particular place
this intimate knowledge of the divine

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i always think of dad on this stretch of the Mole, as when up visiting, just before he died, I walked here all the time,
it would have been his birthday today
the blue flash of the insignia of a kingfisher, this miracle irridescence… a gasp, a fleeting dazzle, yes, and he is gone
‘Sweet Thames, run softly till I end my song’ the river meanders through the Eliots Wasteland
dad was cremated a mile downstream, the hospice where he died 5 miles further, so much of my childhood pottering along the mole
canoeing with Rich P on boxing day, in wet suits, capsizing somewhere near the weir
floating down the river, cold, laughing

when shamanic journeying, in my imagination I often come to this archetypal british river,
familiar, comforting
alder and willow, streams of slime green water weed, dragon flies, swans and kingfishers
a golden rainbow light of vision

the bridge
bridge other direction

chutney

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Chutniiieeee! Tomato and Apple….. agonisingly, ecstatically yum!
first time i’ve ever made it! the secret ingredient ginger (not so secret now blabbermouth)
toms from the garden, a bag of apples from up the hill… the rest of the ingredients all from rummaging deep within the pantry
bung EVERYTHING in the pan and gently hubble and trouble boil away… eventually all was reduced to a state of primordial gloop… that wot the first amoeba clambered out from?
its texture sticky to the finger, colour kinda brown but with lashings of radioactive vermilion
as you can gather i’m proud of it…
it also required great poise to achieve a selfie balancing an apple on my head (William ‘kiss and’ Tell)
anyway had intended to give up on facebook… horribly last decade… at least i’ve spared you my poetry… but you know. CHUTNEY!
a Hindii word originally ‘to lick, or eat with appetite’… indeed!

chalk

chalk
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a dollop of golden honey smeared across the horizon, heatwave, early morning, down by the sea
later it will be batten the hatches. bludgeoned. furnace stale air
yet for now, the gentle lap lap as the sea tip toes closer… Grandmother’s Footsteps…. ‘Whats the time Mr Wolf?’
Cliff mirrored in the stillness of tide pool, the reflection has something of the wobble of water
Brighton and wind turbines lurk further, distant through the haze
Sea birds their sound: clatter and clamour, gobble or chunder…
the gulls call has a rhythmic insistency, the throb and urgency of a police siren
so different to the melodic warble tweet of woodland birds… this cry, far flung, out across the emptiness of the ocean,
else harking back thru profound time to the days of dinosaurs

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chalk
there is scribbleage
a game of hopscotch etched out on the path… who could ever resist?
toss the stone… hop jump, hop jump, hop jump, stoop, pick stone, turn, then hop jump again… a patterning of effort and limbs
somebody has written ‘chalk’ in chalk from the chalk cliffs, the recursive nature pleases my programmers mind
an environment you can write about with the substance of itself
we too are the instruments of our own saying?
‘Chloe loves Jack’
Chloe, or Jack, for that matter, thought it worth articulating
a possessive specificity? this cri de coeur… love walks the chalk?
I have never written ‘I love insert name here‘ in chalk! my Romantic soul somewhat aghast
forever a caveat, a complexity?
yet written in chalk a cheerful ephemera, perfect for youths tender blooms of love


from the cliff flint falls… its clatter

I think of the mountains of Slovenia, Shiv and I setting out along the Triglav trail, the lush beauty of spring,
we climbed higher and higher amongst a host of golden butterflies
two nights camping along the shore of a snow melt lake, distant peaks lotering, crowding the valley sides
nobody, nobody but us
you’d think that, unobserved, nature would be silence, stillness?
but each evening we sat serene in the red light of our campfire,
listening to rocks, rattling down the hillside
like shooting stars, turned to stone, turned to sound
world creaks

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smelling salts, mind revivified by the ammonia tinged stench of seaweed

next i play with the light, shadow summoning a loch ness monster
dapple, stipple these words with memories
shadows … away walking up at devil’s dyke when the kids were young… daughter perched high on my shoulders…
a low sunset light… Yawn stretch of shadow away over the valley and the villages clustered below
Fi Fi fo fum with this thumb, this omnipotence, I obliterate Poynings!
turn, reach further out with arm, vastmess ‘Now the shadow falls upon Fulking!’
chortles from up top, she too raises arms, dabbling with this power
two heads are better than one

chalk

cliffs
falling chalk
shadow
sun splash
life
scribbleage