
Enunciating darkness. Chesil beach

Enunciating darkness. Chesil beach

aww gotta love summer in the 90’s, with all its golden sea sepia nostalgia glow!
the slightly unusual combo of me, Raymondo, Mum and baby Nick, on the walk to polperro
hmm must be 94? gulp nearly a quarter of a century ago… Mel over from Miami, so i’m just back from Praha? or more likely the caves in Granada? just before South America any roads
as i sit here eating ‘dinner’, organic avocado, popcorn hot from the pan and some sweet chilli sauce (do what you want kids!),
easy to stumble into the trope ‘where did it all go wrong?’, but, ha, actually it all went rather marvelously well,
time just passed, not the same as saying, there aren’t so so many things i wish had gone differently, but actually such a blessed existence! x
interspersed with comments from mole!
ha! blooming hope not, but a man muddling thru his maudlin’ young molefred x
i’m currently perusing the internet for 900mm quadrant shower doors, so clearly the glory days are on their way! x
ooh thanks, aw you’ve set my heart tap dancing with your tip top tap top tips! whoops gone a bit dr zeuss x
we look like supergrass! kinda… and who could argue with:
‘we are young, we run free, we’ve got teeth nice and clean…’
dita: Baz! You’ve been exactly like that!!!! (You still are 😉 but it’s funny to see your 90´s face again! Pusa!
aw ditka (ditichku?!), i laughed when i saw this one, it is exactly my praha face and the clothes! ear shaped shell necklace, my favourite ever pink and purple jumper and such astonishing luxuriance of hair! bouffant
goooood times… come visit me and the ocean this summer xx

what barks joy in my heart?…. let the chaos, revelry and clear out commence!… see you on t’other side
*** updated with some words… to ‘honour the process’ and all that malarkey ***
ding! end of round 1… facebook mucking about aside (and what else could the medium be for?) … blimey that was traumatic!!
i know i’m supposed to say cathartic, but little evidence of that just yet.
firstly massive a dust mite sneezing from this hayfever sufferer
still i managed to liberate 5 stuffed bin bags from my own wardrobe, then a further 2 from the airing cupboard, straight away pronto recycling them down the tip
in truth i didn’t even imagine i had 5 bags full worth of clobber? amazing what we can manage to squirrel away!
the secret for me was to deal with the stuff with most emotional baggage first, whilst i still had some brio,
after that all the rubbish you never really cared about and seldom wear was easy…
the main downside being that barely/nary a single sock survived the cull, so if you see me skipping thru the snow in just a pair of sandals, you’ll know why!
oh and in no particular order the worst 3 emotional items this cancerian nostalgia hoarder managed to chuck:
… 2 t-shirts, one purple, one green that i’d meandered along the camino in, more holes than fabric!
i pretty much refuse to wear clothes unless they’re battered beyond belief, and have better personality than practicality these had been around since the late 90’s, then gone travelling round asia… the camino, where you wring everything out by hand after each days amble, was sposed to be their swan song, cept, of course, i carried on wearing them
… the last of the beautiful coloured alpacca wool cardies from otavalo, moth eaten to a string vest, older than Finn, from the time when pam and i met in South America and loitered in a lurid hued nest of them
… my down feather trekking jacket, beautiful bottle green, a north face fake from kathmandu, in this i floated over the Thorung La pass (5400m!) the zip broke years ago, and then it developed a leak, everywhere i traipsed there was a cloud o’fevvers, used to infuriate dad, who’d follow me around the house brandishing a hoover, ha!
anyway all nowt but history now

happy chinese new year!…. tho obv i know utterly nothing about it, apparently tis pig, which is prosperity and enjoyment of the many pleasures of life, sounds guzzle grand to me x

May: Tea and cake sooon? Xx
yaaas! no idea how its been so long, hope to make landfall (in my hot air balloon) in btown saturday… if you about then?
or most welcome to swing by the coast way on your way home xxx
for that matter, why is a clanger trussed up in mexican wrestler bondage clobber? a perplexing world! xx

Mic: Hi BazComing to Australia anytime in the future 😀
Me: aww i wish! one day. haven’t been back since i was a skipping about 21 year old… we shall glug a few schooners, mongst the weirdly cosmic boulders of magnetic island? love to you and fambly xx
Mic: Mate, they do pints now as stardard or a pot which is 375mls, weather great, surrounded by mountains lakes , sea and Islands
You would be most welcome anytime, we have a rambling colonial wooden house just shy of a century old with heaps of space.
In Brisbane.
Keep,well and travel safe and best wishes to family
Cannot remember last time we met up , must be 15 years?
Managed to track down Rebecca last year, married with family, still in California, although I doubt she will ever forgive you forgive you for the demise of the Peanut butter 30 years ago
Me: ooh sounds like an idyllic life out there! we hitched up to cape trib, reef and rainforest, when i was 21, spent a few days in brisbane, but all a blur
my kids are alledgedly adults now, Finn probs almost the age we were when we met… you and your gangrene… so will deffo intend to get over soonish
ha! Rebecca the mountains and peanut butter! that made me guffaw out loud, wild, wild beautiful crazy days… as is now
i’m sitting here with a huge vat of peanut butter spooning it into my mouth absent mindedly… because i can
send her my love if you chat again
aww and mirroring back 2 snaps you took back then, know you’ve got them, but pretty much the only fragments from my travels
enjoy. om shanti xxx


Mic: Hi MR Baz
Good memories, although maybe time to visit and make some more, not been in contact with Rebecca for a year, maybe I should send her some organic, sun ripened, locally grown and picked peanut butter, although getting anything healthy stateside may be difficult.
Love the photos you post
Love ya work
Mick

‘why the long face?’ Basgallop, Exeter University. Your starter for 10… Test driving the funky scarf mum knitted…with a new friend, mongst the seasonal drab

watched Inception on netflix yestereve… excellent entertainment for a not going out january night had forgotten what a great film it is!
from its ‘man washes up on a beach’ opening, to the perfectly weighted ambivalence of the final shot… gripping
works well just as a straight action film… fight scenes as the world tumbles over!
possibly it’s fast pace sleight of hand conceals that its not quite as clever as it thinks it is (true of all of us too!)
but personally i love the mind and space bending psychological tricksiness… ‘a riddle, wrapped in a mystery, inside an enigma’
fairly noir in a Blade Runner kind of way, with many a nod to Citizen Kane – was watching a doco on Orson Wells but the night before
in retrospect, quite a cast too… had no idea Cillian Murphy, Tom Hardy, Pete Postlethwaite were in it too
‘And why Not’ in my best Bazza Norman tones
oh and escher pics obvs



porridge with raspberries? yes? no? feel i have finally jumped the porridge shark
i know my McFarlane forbears would give me a drek look of despair… ‘ye cannae do that, porridge is for fixing the roads round here’
still they would have shrugged with approval of my choice of music… Dick Gaughan Porridge ftw
on the epic cycle it was essential ballast for a days pedalling, porridge the universal solvent, alkahest in alchemical terms…
best with banana and peanut butter, but literally bung in anything! tahini, seeds, honey, cinnamon…
my own preference would be for a yin yang bowl… savoury on one side, sweet to the other. yum
wrap up warm… icicles on the end of my conk on this mornings pedal

Wild Geese – Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
ah ben i was thinking about you when out on my bike this morning, so sad your gone
somewhat of an abrupt change of mood, but life is all sorts of emotions rolled up together… public but nestled away in a comment
hold your loved ones close, it can be harsh out there
i know they’ll be a moment at the next festie, skanking away down the front, to turn and somewhere in the crowd, half imagine your face…earnest yet amused
i’ll light a candle… travel well x
……………………………………………
‘then we would cook only porridge, of which i’ll share with youuuuu’
to end, a love song from his mighty bob-ness
Marie: aaahhhhhh a sexy ready break. I’m having oats and super bruised fruit. January gruel I’m comparison to yours :))

me: ah ready brek glow, always seemed somewhat radioactive! xx
laura: I have it with tahini and agave and blueberries and raspberries too! Every morning! Breakfast of champions ![]()
me: tahini deffo, blueberries hugely acceptable, but tahini and blueberries? hmm vonnegut for your guts! x
tho so bewildering my mood today… the mere mention of blueberries has me maudlin along to lilac wine… probs teh jeff buckley rather than elkie brooks version, but can’t be sure with my tuneless-ness
Ross: Traditionally the Scots only had water, oats and salt in their porridge – for the simple reason that those were the only ingredients they had available. These days put what you like in your porridge I reckon. Am sure our ancestors would have done if they could
me: good point! i agree, but there is possibly a streak o’stern in calvinism? our ancestors tho would have guzzled avocados by the barrell load, of that i am sure
we do indeed live in a bubble, a realm of rare plenitude… worryingly, how long it will last i do not know.. xx
Ross: I’m actually quite partial to a bit of stern calvinism from time to time.. but yes maybe just don’t worry about it and we can enjoy the avocados and raspberries while they last ![]()

wot emperor nero would scoff for breakfast… weirdly delish (i think?) seldom eat avos in this country on ethical grounds… but this one looked like it was going off… yeah yeah
seldom suggest anything imagining it to be absurd, all that does is plant the seed of possibility x